I was told to start journaling and even look up Journal Prompts so I don't even have to come up with what to write about.

I'll start first about just feeling lost, and that I don't know who I am. I feel like the pieces just scattered and I can't find any of them I was on such a great trajectory and this sets me back to worst than before.

Who am I. ( Read more... )

Better to break up? To walk away? Will it ever be the same? It just makes me feel so sick and taken advantage of and just useless trying to fix something that will never be the same. I wish I knew what to do

How does one navigate if they can feel that their partner doesn't feel like monogamous relationships make sense. That they are supposedly in one with you, but something tells you that they wouldn't want to keep it that way?

How to navigate that? How do you bring that conversation up without understanding the risk of the outcome that could happen. ( Read more... )

Fucccckkkkkkk

Why do I feel so broken?

It's hard to believe that you're an amazing person, but people settle for other people. That feeling that I wasn't worth it.

I would like to tell you, I would like to say ( Read more... )

It continues to surprise me that, to this day, one random word, memory, things, subject can spark such heartache, such emotions. A day of on and off crying. Somehow it has a healing factor as if the times between are spent a little easier, a little better, before the tears strike up again. Sometimes a vision of clarity, that maybe things are not ( Read more... )

I am really loving my job. My co workers, my job, working hands on, going around to different properties. I almost forgot about the anniversary of my mom passing. I kind of felt bad that I'm extremely happy and this date is coming up ( Read more... )

Reoccurring theme: People don't empathize with your shitty schedule, and don't realize how much of a routine you  need to keep to stay somewhat sane from working Grave Shift. 'Your work is just around the corner, you can take off from here.' Except, guess what, I need that two hour time before getting ready for work to refresh myself, to nap, to ( Read more... )

Fuck..