Yea my head is fucking killing me..plus..I've been in a goof ballish mood.

Trying to rip me apart from the inside..I hate feeling selfish and SO DAMN QUICK. Just want to hold your hand is all...Miss your smile...

...I am just like a wolf..I'll bite anything that comes close to my territory..silly me..

"She's going away..going away..what's wrong ( Read more... )

So yea..I took the day off...feeling like death rolled over twice in it's grave this morning but I'm all good now thanks to chicken noodle soup and Orange juice..plus lots of decongestant. anyways here are the pics I took over the weekend, behind a cut cause of how many there are, plus one of my *ahem* current infatuation :P

( I'm awful with a camera )

I'm at work right now and can't help but feel elated and giddy. I'm so full of excitement and butterflies. I love this feeling. I'm a bit cautious to jump to conclusions. I fall for guys like him to easily. I don't want to be hurt but if it's the kind of a hurt a whipped puppy would keep going back regardless. David...I love that name now..those ( Read more... )

I've lost my resolve...I can't be loved...I won't ever be treated like I actually matter. I give up on it...him...everything. Why does me trying to love people always ends up hurting me the most?...

Why does his voice sound so cold to me when I talk to him...so emotionless. I broke down crying last night for the first time in a while. that cry that just rips your chest apart. I just wanted someone to hold me. Frivolous I suppose it is to want something so much. Why is it that he wants something from me that I can only give to him when I can ( Read more... )

Is going to concerts when I can and rocking out. Last night was Dir En Grey and needless to say they put one a awesome show. I got lost driving to the Gothic but we got there 3 songs before Dir went on. Me, Peanut and this other guy just wanted to thrash some faces and I'm pretty sure the 2 times that I picked up short girls that came under my ( Read more... )

So at this moment..I feel so very helpless..What did I do...to go through this. I feel so lost I don't know what to do...I haven't gone grocery shopping in almost 2 months, I'm so fucking sick of Ramen the smell of it makes me want to puke. I can barely pay my bills and let alone I don't want to bother anyone with the fact that I need help. I don' ( Read more... )

Yoinked this from Mali ( Read more... )

I hate my way of feeling, so lost. I just want to be held in a genuine manner. To feel like..I'm not an ugly duckling.. I just really...want to never think so negatively of myself but it's so hard...because I feel like everyone I come across just wants to use me...break this fragile heart...tarnish this shell ( Read more... )

Just wishing..I wasn't so pathetic...so wanting and needing...I don't like not being able to cry now...and these eyes are so sad..so pathetic