Epiphany is the wrong word. I didn't suddenly wake up and realize that I haven't been an easy person to be around, that I've alienated myself. It's come slowly, in waves. Small incidents have rankled with me, contributing to what has become an overwhelming feeling of, well, failure. I don't like talking about it like this, not where my husband and ( Read more... )

BJ's coming home. Am I happy about it? Not really. She's never going to learn responsibility if we let her come home but Bob said it was alright and nobody cares what I think ( Read more... )

Today is Bob's birthday. We're going out to dinner. I'm sure it'll be fun. Wow, I haven't updated in a long time. Anyone miss me? :)

Ask me a question. A question about myself, my life, personal, superficial, inappropriate, whatever. And I will answer it the best I can.

I haven't updated in awhile. Let's see, what has happend...*thinks* Well, Nick sent me flowers for Mother's Day. I was so happy. Thank you, Sweetie. Bob & the kids made dinner that night. That was my gift from them, which was very sweet. Thank you all. I don't know what else to say right now, I'm too tired to think. I'm going to bed. I will try ( Read more... )

Why is it that all my kids pretty much hate me and my husband thinks I'm a slut?! Yes, I use to be the biggest bitch that ever walked planet Earth but I'm trying to change. I'm going to need their cooperation with all this but it doesn't seem to be happening. I don't mean everything I do and say. I mean we all have our faults. I'm trying to fix ( Read more... )

Bob told me I should get an AIM screen name so I did. It's LjJaneC123, feel free to IM me. I'd love to chat! :)

All my kids and my husband have these journals so I decided to get one. :)