I've run out of words to express the way I feel. I have completely loss all sense of mentality or intelligence that I had left, not to say that I had much to begin with. I am (pardon the cliche) at the end of my rope. My fuse has burned down to the quick and I have detonated into a deep and darkened world of ultimate depression and uselessness ( Read more... )

I fucking hate people. I have tried so hard since getting back to be a civil person to everyone I meet, but these fucking miserable wretches that inhabit this city are really starting to piss me off. Two people in the span of a week have actually tried to get me to go to blows with them. I think the next time it happens I'm just going to say ( Read more... )

Each day as the sun casts aside the dreariness of these nights, the collective thoughts of my day renew their everlasting war against my psyche. In the last few months, I've come to the grim conclusion that something inside me is far more twisted than we had previously believed. Prior inspections by both friends and family had affirmed popular ( Read more... )

Fuck you all.

Walk among others as if you have no pride ( Read more... )

Oh man is it good to be home. Sometimes we never realize what we had until we leave it behind for a bit. As I lay here in my bed next to my beautiful wife to be, I finally found that brief reprieve that I needed. I also now know that I can never stay in Arizona. After my time is done with the Corps I have to get away. I think it's the whole ( Read more... )

I don't even know what to say anymore. I've spent so much time both on this horrid machine and with my pen and pad trying to express what I feel. Between rhymes and rhythms, and just plain writing, I've lived countless hours and minutes with my thoughts and words. They're all beginning to blend together though. These words that I've conjured to ( Read more... )

Inevitability is drawing near. That time when I must leave it all behind for 7 months. This will be the determining factor. At least after this I'll know who truly gives a flying fuck and who's just along for the ride. My guess is that the majority of those in question are simply along for the ride. True people are a rarity anymore. I must ( Read more... )

Sheathed in dust and rust puddled upon photograph reminders ( Read more... )