wow i don't know something doesn't seem right, im starting to feel weaker everyday. I wake up around 3 or 4 am everday then after that i can't fall asleep again. i keeep getting head aches maybe im getting sick or something. i'v been really sad lately too, cuz i just found out my grandma has cancer. also things between me and ian haven't been great ( Read more... )

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man I've been having these weird dreams about ian cheating on me with his Ex.he's not kissing her but he's flirting with her and she's flirting with him. the worst thing is that their doing it right in front of me as if im not even there! In my last dream i rememeber getting mad at him and walking away he followed me but he didn't even realize that ( Read more... )

Hey everyone!! hows it going?!well i went skating yesterday with ian and briana it was pretty fun. Me and ian walked around the lake at album, IT SMELLED LIKE SHIT but i wanted to see the tadpoles....there pretty big. I can't wait till they start growing there legs! Ow yeahi landed this nearlly impossible trick!! i felt so proud of myself...since i ( Read more... )

hey im at ian's house right now just waiting for him to finish fixing his car, something wrong with the moitor...i think. i woke up at 7;00 am today..i wen to eastwood high cuz i was suppose to show konstantin around...but i REally didn't want to be there, this weird feeling came over me. I could stand it so after being there for about 5 maybe 10 ( Read more... )

hey well i haven't written on here for a long while SO how is everyone?!??!?!?! well in case you didn't know arlene is expected to come back from basic training tomorrow so im hoping to go visit her!! The forign extange(sp?) student arrived today e seems really cool, so to everyone that is still going to eastwood BE NICE TO HIM OR ELSE!!!!!O_o lol ( Read more... )

im so confused right now...everthing just seems out of place. I feel as if i don't belong anymore, like i should move on from this world...but idon't want to! not yet not until i know everythings fine between us.

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hey i miss everyone on here :( i haven't seen any of you for a while! Since the end of the school year i've mostly been hanging out with ian....don't get me wrong he's an amazing guy and i love him, but i just miss hanging out with my friends.....i mean 2 of them already left me, le moved to chicago and arlenes went off to the airforce...i miss ( Read more... )

to was AAAMMMAAZZZIINNGG! me and ian spent most of it together we watched MORTAL KOMBAT!!! man i love that movie :D in other news me two best friends(bre and TIna) will be back in EL paso soon i think tomorrow or maybe monday they'll be flying back from gorgia......but saddly my other best friend, this short crazy asian named le will be moving to ( Read more... )