is it bad to miss someone soo much that you'd do anything to get them back. because thats how i've been feeling lately, i feel so helpless not being able to get back what i had before just the conversations were amazing shit i wish she would come back, or atleast talk to me why can't i just get up the nerve to phone her i don't understand its like ( Read more... )

schooled by the prez again time and time again almost getting tired of it but thats the way shit seems to fall lately meh i guess/hope things'll change soon enough

HaHaHa man its funny what changes from one phone call. perspectives change quite a bit. know i'm slowly going back into what i tried for so long not to go back into, but like always just takes one to drag you back in. and what can i say its fun and truthfully a little fun and the money ain't too bad either haha. man everyday at work now i'm going ( Read more... )

man i've been so out of it today anything that one can do wrong i've done it and some things have been really really funny dump red dye all over myself head to toe that was good took 20min to clean some of that off still stained though. it funny when the mind is in one place and the body is in reality. just doesn't match up. oh well with everything ( Read more... )

man made the best sausage last night and making another 75 pounds tonite. found out some really shitty news today about a friend of mine and it kinda kills all my thoughts and problems making it feel really pitty, i found out that jay jay has been diagnost with cancer a while ago and that the doctors have told him he has no more then three months ( Read more... )

alycia i give up when you want to talk to me and your not too busy give me a call thought i'd say it here b/c you'll prob read this before i talk to you again. give me a call sometime let me know whats up i'm confused

mind is sooo fucked up right now need person to talk and me to listen can't say anything right its fucked why can't anything work its shit i wish things could just go back to the way they were why is everything so complicated now can't a person just be happy its shit aaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. time to quite bad habits and start fresh maybe finaly ( Read more... )

things are finally coming clearer and seem to be looking good, job is going good, relationship think is going good, friends are in good contact, and i'm finally happy with everthing, things seemed to good to be true before and was waiting for something to go wrong and it ended up being my grandpa getting rushed into the hospital while i was there ( Read more... )

i got back from a great little get away today, out hunting great times even got me one a couple days ago, aww what a great feeling being out in the woods walking thruogh valleys, over hills, and through big bushes, kinda sad to be back but sooooo happy because now i can see alycia again woooow ( Read more... )

today was a real i opener. i woke up early like usual but just kind of thought about things and realized how great i have things right now in my life, that i don't know why i acted the way i did before. i'm sorry to everyone who i've pissed off even if i don't say the words. i hope things can stay the way they were just last week even, it just ( Read more... )