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wow people can be really immature these days & it kind of bothers me that one person you thought so highly of & felt so strongly about could turn out to be a complete fucking douche bag. but better to know now than later right? yeh i don't think i've ever been this angry before in my life & i'm not an angry person.

my application for the arts school i applied to has been reviewed & they scheduled an audition for me for visual photography & acting. i'll admit that photography is a new hobby of mine but i want to work on it & i want to see if i've got the talent. i don't know anything about photography bu ti know that i've got a camera & i know when i see a ( Read more... )

remember when you ate that leaf the one that made you want to leave; that poison that you gobbled up & made you pack your clothes & stuff; now remember how i held you tight & told you that it'd be alright; & kissed you til the daylight came & hoped to God you felt the same; remember how you clutched me close your skin transluscent, comatose; these ( Read more... )

blue & it was everywhere & i was scared & so were you. but then again it's not so bad. it illuminated everything & reflected off my bedsheets, i could see the color in your face. but i just want to hold you & never let you go & i just want to wear your shirt to bed every night so i could feel you wrapped around me & all of my wants i know are ( Read more... )

lol to say teh least, i'm really happy about how things are panning out, i'm starting to make more friends, my confidence level is boosting & i like the where things are headed. school could be a hell of a lot better but i'm working on it. there are some people who i could do without & i'm realizing they're doing more bad than good. but i know that ( Read more... )

my mom refuses to talk to me when i'm stressing out. it pisses me off because i stress out because i don't want to fall behind. i don't want ot let myself slip behind & yet everytime i start to freak out her response is "alright, i'll talk to you abou this when you're calm" FUCK YOU FDU GH FUCKKKK YOUUUUU. YOU HAVE NO IDEA HOW HARD IT IS FOR ME & ( Read more... )

sometimes i feel inferior billions & billions of people & in reality, what do you really count for? you're a speck of existence, you're nothing special, you've got nothing to offer. so what do you do? sometimes i tell myself that i need to step back & relax & realize that i am blessed. there are worse things that could be happening & to be where i ( Read more... )

i want to live through my heart & not my brain. i want to make mistakes with someone beside me telling me that it was okay to make them. i want to love with my soul & keep giving & giving until there's nothing left to give. i want hand out my love to everyone until i'm empty inside & then i could die. i could give away every ounce of passion i ( Read more... )

man, life's been pretty fuckin' good. FINALLY makin' some friends.
& i think i'm going to a sleepover this weekend?!?lsdhfg.
i feel like such a little kid but i'm so excited. askhf haahah pictures maybe?