oslo is a puppy i found a little over a year ago. her and her sister roomed the streets unclaimed and unloved. It was late july, the heat was powerful, so intense that within 20 minutes of  outdoors i felt massive pulsating in my head and obtuse nausea that claimed my entire being. My boyfriend tommy and i were heading out, down the steep incline ( Read more... )

I hardly remembered my password, it has been awhile.... then again it is 530 in the morning ( Read more... )

I failed to disconnect my feelings, fully aware of  your perminate departure this saturday.  How could i have had  you for so long ... and completely, willingly, by choice pass you up!??  All these years?!  So my sadness is limited.. It's so difficult because the last time i truly felt this way for another person was literally a good five years or ( Read more... )

I awoke only to find my lungs empty,
And through the night, so it seems I'm not breathing.
And now my dreams are nothing like they were meant to be,
And I'm breaking down, I think I'm breaking down.

And I'm afraid to sleep because of what haunts me,
Such as living with the uncertainty
That I'll never find the words to say which would completely explain
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I'm shutting down ( Read more... )

smells like autumn, smells like leaves
you don't know that you'll rust and not belong so much
and then get left alone

We had a good run.
Thank you.
-goodbyeeeeees

Today, I got my hair cut. First time in 17 months.

On our walks we collected small treasures for the altar we had made in my little car: acorn cradles, mini blossoms, bits of old rusted iron. the woods were sparse, like those in fairy tales, with shafts of sunlight falling in perfect lines between the trees ( Read more... )

This place is dead.