ahhhh...long time, eh? yeah well life has been busy, that's always good. I have grown some definitely, i find that drinking isn't fun anymore unless there is a purpose. I don't know it actually frustrates me that I think that but its weird and hard to explain, it pretty much came naturally and I cant fight it. It is like growing big boobs and you ( Read more... )

life doesnt get any easier, it only gets harder. Maybe because I put myself in these situations. Finding new jobs sucks, and I fucking hate my family life, i dont feel comfortable in my own fucking house anymore. I have a fucking pothead step-father who drinks everyday and takes out his emotions on the wrong people, his family. I cant stand it, i ( Read more... )

So I have a lot to say since the last post. I have a boyfriend now, I have two jobs, a new laptop, a new house, a new phone and no car. The two jobs are just part- time; I lifeguard and work at Wahoos. Lifeguarding is awesome if nobody drowns, I sit on my ass all day and get paid decent. Wahoos is amazing as well, it comes with great incentives ( Read more... )

i have mood swings, im easily irritated, i am extremely gullible and I take everything seriously. I am not on birth control, not taking any medication and not pregnant. I always have to be in control of the situations I am in, I can tag along but the end result has to benefit me in the end. If I cannot control a situation or get the end result that ( Read more... )

hahaaaa yeah okay so yeah.....i have been back from rancho for a while now......im back in pasadena.....YAY!
I am dating new guy but the old one....well he still kept me hanging until recently...
Me and the old guy r just freinds, which sux.....
I still drink like crazy...like 4 times a week.
I still go out till 3 am.....I mean I guess some things ( Read more... )

I swear I just want to cry.

The one person that I thought would always be there, isn't going to be here. I'm tired of opening up for nothing......
dude straight up asshole move. I don't think I am going to be in the 909 very long, i need to be with my family and freinds. He was the only one keeping me here, now I just don't want to be here anymore ( Read more... )

"sigh".......
what do we do when someone we know has a trouble in their life? Do we welcome them with open arms or sit and join them in their bad time?
Fuck, just what if someone is telling you that your life was meant to fail, because the road that your on makes it seem like there is no way out?
All the roads you took lead to some kind of disaster ( Read more... )

I am in complete utter confusion!
Well I start school this week at another school....in the 909, at least I am in school
I really need to not fuck up this time because if I do, then I know where I stand
Going up back to Nor Cal again was fun as hell, I drank for 10 days straight.........about 300 bux was wasted
All the Nor Cal homies went to SDSU so ( Read more... )

i drink too damn much....and i have fuckn pride in it.....sadly....whatever...this is my outlook.......if i am in school i can do whatever bad drug or drink i want....as long as i do good in school

Im living in the 909......n going to school out here probably.
hello no social life!
and im leaving to nor cal in a week n a half.