its gone. i miss it.

SUCKY CRAP THAT SUCKS A LOT ( Read more... )

lets count how many emotions must run through my head everyday. damn.

LAST PERSON THAT ( Read more... )

ok, so all this emotion and build-up for what?? abso-f*cki-lutely nothing. you know. get over it. that's all it freakin takes

BUT THEN

ernn gave me great insight today. one chance. don't waste your time being like that becuase you know what? it might be too late. ( way too late ) and you might be throwing your whole life away. thia really changes ( Read more... )

ok so i'm in the chapel and i find this prayer book that lets you dedicate a whole week to st. anthony of padua. being that he is my patron saint, i thought it was a sign from God to help me get closer with my saint. st. anthony is the patron saint of lost articles or lost causes. and IRONICALLY my parents threw it away so now its LOST in the trash ( Read more... )

9 lasts.
1.last cigarette: two years ago
2.last beverage: pepsi fomr L&L's
3.last kiss: mommy this morning before i left for school
4.last movie seen: memoirs of a geisha
5.last phone call: maria medina
6.last cd played: rent
7.last bubble bath: when i was kid
8.last relationship: december
9.last smile: at the movies

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i'm eating breakfast right now. its almost 7:00 pm. everything seems to be falling out of place. i only like three ice cubes in my drink. my faith always continues on this never ending cycle. first i start falling away from Christ, jaded towards any realization that what i'm doing is wrong. second, things start falling apart and things start piling ( Read more... )

feeling left out is the worst feeling that i can think of.

but o well. its they're loss cuz they don't get to hang out with me. i'm leaving for san francisco in about 30 minutes and i havn't gotten any sleep. hopefully i'll sleep the whole way and it won't be as long. i really miss how i used to be. i was so zealous towards Christ. what happened ( Read more... )

all i want for christmas is to get away from it all.

.all it from away get to is christmas for want i all