i'm not doing so hot today. definitely not my day. i have been getting constantly kicked in the face over and over. sweet life i lead sometimes, huh?

 i really can't do this anymore. i'm so upset all the time and i don't know how to fix it. i've been blocking everything out by not being at home, but now i have to be at home and i don't know what to do. i feel so alone. i just don't want to feel this way. why do you have to lie to me? why do you tell me you want to be with me if you don't? i just ( Read more... )

It’s not like I didn’t know.

They all think I’m naïve.

The painful year of wet eyes and bruised hearts

was going to evaporate into the summer.

We were supposed to be intertwined on that mattress.

We were supposed to run away and be happy in secret.

When you wear something around your finger

You’re supposed to mean it.

It’s not like I didn’t know

Every ( Read more... )

"I know that I brought this all on myself. I know that I deserve this. I'd do anything not to be this way. I'd do anything to make it up to everyone. And to not have to see a psychiatrist, who explains to me about being "passive agressive." And to not have to take the medicine he gives me, which is too expensive for my dad. And to not have to talk ( Read more... )

How old were you when you first...

1. Fell in love: 17

2. Lost someone close to you: not really ever.

3. got drunk: 15

4. smoked weed:18

5. Got kissed: 12

6. Went to the hospital for surgery:  never

7. Got your heart broken: 17 and 18 but it's okay.

8. Lost a pet: never

9. arrested: never

10. Smoked a Cigarette: 15

11. Broken a bone: when i was born my collar ( Read more... )

not much has been going on. i got a job, well actually i got two jobs. one is guarding at the jcc and i get to do the morning shift some days which is at 5:45am and sucks but i get 13 dollars an hour. and if i am good and not late for three months i get 15 dollars an hour. and i got a job as a mother's helper for a three month old and a nineteen ( Read more... )

it's really scary.

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