Incredibly torn about this whole college thing.
It hurts my heart but it keeps me going.
I don't know how I feel, so instead I just act aloof.

I don't know where or how to start this entry. This past month has been absolutely wild. This truly is an unending summer, but I've been loving almost every second of it ( Read more... )

I am sad.

I like to feel the wind against my eyelashes because it reminds me that these things are only temporary.

Tomorrow is my orientation at Rowan and I can't quite bring myself to feel happy or excited. The truth is I'm terrified and unprepared. In light of all the recent drama (which has gotten vividly out of control) I no longer know how to feel about myself. This isn't where I ever wanted to be. And the best part about it all is that despite being told ( Read more... )

I hate when people leave me.

I don't care how that sounds.

I went from homebody to wild child at 60mph, flinging myself from one end of south jersey to the next, hopelessly checking and re-checking my lipgloss in the rearview mirror. This summer has been nothing but chasing and being chased. It's been new friendships and awkward sleepovers, piercings and gas money. It's been bitchy and mellow, soft and ( Read more... )

Because I will continue to compare every guy to him, and realize that no one will be as good. Because I will continue to fall in love with ideas and then run away. Because it's easier, less risky, and more fulfilling to be alone. Because even though I cry, I'll keep telling them I'm okay. Because to keep moving I have to tuck it all inside and push ( Read more... )

Prom was half okay half amazing, wholly unusual.
Driving to the shore now.
Entirely drowsy. I feel like everythings happening in vibrations against my skin.
And the alcohol is unopened.

I wanted to build a sandcastle ( Read more... )