college, college, moving away, unmotivation, hate ap psych, money, money, get money, new hampshire, pennsauken, no hands held, nerdy birdy, hate school, hate work, hate everyone, no, no, love everyone, impulse, exhaustion, cry, cry, cry, crying, scared, achey old bones, scholarships, feelin' sick, headaches, gluten, pressure, pressure, pressure, ( Read more... )

I got into the University of New Hampshire, which is fucking sick.
The brothers are still a pain in the ass. Biddies are still fun to fuck with.
Life is so good.
I'm floating.

Happy eighteenth birthday to me.

Finally proud to be an American.

I only think of you in short, quick bursts, like the hollow pant of a moth's wings as it moves toward light.

I want to be the girl with the most cake
I love him so much it just turns to hate
I fake it so real, I am beyond fake
And someday, you will ache like I ache

If you really love me, you'll buy me An Inconvenient Truth on DVD because I keep forgetting to buy it myself and I'm strapped for cash.

Dear 2008 ( Read more... )

I can no longer hide the growing pains behind my textbooks or beneath my fur-lined hood. I am fucking scared. Scared of leaving the people I care about, scared of pursuing the wrong career, scared of never finding love. Yes. I said it. I am terrified, beyond belief, that I will never be enough for anyone because I'm not even enough for myself. I've ( Read more... )

Accepted at Rowan University. First letter from college, and it was an acceptance letter. Hooray :)