anyone out thereeee?


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Living in mother fucking SIN.

YAY for jobs! I probably have one, but I'm not going to be happy until I get a job that I ca n enjoy and pursue for awhile. Sephora is number one on my list.I can't wait to show everyone who has underestimated me what I am capable of. I have such big dreams, always have. I have high hopes and a lot of faith. I just cannot go under anymore. I cannot ( Read more... )

summer 2010 things to do :)

-Visit Brittany!
-Visit my cousin summer
-Steady job
-Loose 10 more pounds
-Pay off shit
-Enroll for school
-Healthier eating
-More yoga
-Vaykayshunz
-Continue to be healthy :)

WHYY IS MY LJ LAYOUT SO FUCKED  UP? Now I have to fix it ( Read more... )

there is a weird change in myself today. a good one. it is best if i dont even think, and just go with it. if i think about change, i get scared.

how did i get so amazing with such an amazing boy? even when things aren't going the way i'd like, i have the most perfect boyfriend to make up for it. NEVER EVER have i felt so loved by another man in my ENTIRE life. <3

finally! this is the best i have ever felt being clean and sober, in over a fucking year ( Read more... )

My past haunts me. Its so hard to move on when I have to think about everything I've been through just in the past two year's alone. I need to forget. But I have so many nightmares it's impossible. I know I'm worth so much more yet I bring myself down constantly. The thongs ive seen, people ive been with, situations ive put myself in... its still ( Read more... )

i'm in love again.
there, i said it.

this time feels sooo good. no arguments. always thinking the same thing. always enjoying each others company.
it's fucking perfect.

winter is so depressing. who's with me?