I hate hate hate hate hate to be stereotypical,
but shut the fuck up mom.
I sound like a 15 year old.
No. I'm 20 years old, and i still get shit for not cleaning my room.
FUCK.
And why i picked now to update, I'm still not sure.

I can't handle this constant drifting in between happiness and i don't even know what to call it. I don't know who I am anymore ( Read more... )

Soooo.
I love not having to lie to myself anymore. I love that I'm actually happy and that I'm not trying to convince myself that I am.
I miss everyone. Come home now please.

lol.
my last entry?
begins with:
"life is working out wonderfully for me right now. I dont want to jinx it blah blah blah."

I FUCKING JINXED IT. Andddd now, it's not working out so wonderfully.
Maybe I should keep my fucking mouth shut.

So recently, life has been working out wonderfully. I don't want to jinx it but whatever ( Read more... )

I don't think I've ever made worse decisions in my life. If I could take this back, I would do everything over and do something productive with my life. I hate this.
I haven't felt okay in weeks.

Summer ends in a week ( Read more... )

why does it feel like I'm doing something wrong?
I don't even realize it until I think for awhile.
I don't want to lose this.
Or you. Or anyone.
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I'm updating this
from my new
laptop lol @ every1 who duznt have 1 lollshljcxdskjhgajh!

I can't believe it's over.
Like, it's really over.
It was only four years but it felt like my whole life. Andddd now it's gone.
I have a few months left to be an asshole with my best friends.
So uh, I guess we should make this count then?
I guess so.
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whatever.