It was my freshman year and being a rather shy person, I had joined senate as a way to meet people. After making a fool f myself at the first meeting, I got an email from the council chair explaining when our first council meeting was. I was so nervous/ excited I forgot what day it was and showed up two days early to the meeting. Slow to realize it ( Read more... )

You got a fast car ( Read more... )

so today.

nothing interesting. i fell in the mud. went swinging (very calming i must say). applied for jobs.

dad has to go in for major heart surgery the week before my birthday. moms nervous :/ im not sure how i feel about it. im sure everything will be fine its just... its weird to think about.

whatever. i get to see steve in a few days! :)

"well, you werent very good"

thanks mom. love you too.

so this weekend was perfect. i got to spend time with steve, and we even got to sleep together! not in the house of course, in a tent, but still it was amazing. most sleep ive gotten all week. its terrible when i cant sleep without him :( maybe someday mom will let him sleep in my bed with me. that would be perfect<3 ( Read more... )

I feel like being sick. I just want to sink into the floor and not exist. Nothing maters anymore. Theres nothing. Nothing. I cant believe im saying this but, I want my mom. I just want to curl up and cry and not deal with the world ever again. Because life is just so pointless. Why do we take 10 seconds of happiness, when we know its going to lead ( Read more... )

i have not gone to bed all night ( Read more... )

what is wrong with me ( Read more... )

gah.

im sick.
i got steve sick.
but now i am getting better

i still havent written this paper for my RA thing

Lupe Fiasco is coming to UNH. bah.

Steve makes fun of my music.

ok so thats my week in a nutshell. toodles.

i hate relationships. im seriously considering not being in one anymore. Im giving only 50% to it when he deserves 100%. i just..hate the drama. and steve and i are already fighting, which really isnt a good sign ( Read more... )