depressed.
I need a pick-me-up
I need some hardcore lovin' in my life.
asap.

one positive right now - I thought about something on the way home from the way-co game tonight.
and it scared me shitless. heart-attack scared.
so I guess thats good at least.

lock myself in a closet.
drive my car off a cliff
cut off all human contact
drink arsenic
become an extreme introvert
never form another relationship with anyone ever again.

all sound like good ideas to me.

so i've had a different weekend. Friday after school it was SOOOO nice out, Smashley and I played tennis and went to track practice, hung out til about 5. then i napped for an hour, then sat around the house all evening with mi madre. Saturday i worked 8-12, then straight to play practice til 5. Came home, fell asleep about 530 til 930, then hung ( Read more... )

i just realized that today is my 5 year anniversary of being a livejournaler.
march 31, 2001, Rae_rae2006 was created.

it was lame.

for once in my life.. i wish i wasn't right about something.
I wish i hadn't been right about this.
it hurts my heart.

pssh.
pissed. sick of it. sick of everything. maybe its time for "ignore the world" rachel again.
I wasn't depressed when i was that rachel.
lets try it out tonight...

I'm obsessed with shoes. I'm in love with the thought of love. I want to get wasted, drunk, trashed, absolutley annihilated. My best friend is acting as if she hates me... less than a week after convincing me that i was stupid for refusing to have a best friend. LOOKS LIKE I WAS RIGHT. Theres nothing I want more than to slit my wrists when I feel ( Read more... )

115 am ( Read more... )

Rachel's face,
meet Mr. Telephone Pole.

Well, at least I made it out with the lipgloss that cost like 10 bucks!
crazy times tonight with my bff. One day... we'll be in jail or something ;) but i love her and i missed her..so glad were not fighting anymore.
Walmart trip tonight, then the farther away walmart, then taco bell, then bath's very own walk-mart.

oh deary.

nd now......mary is ( Read more... )