i love himw ith my whole entire heart and this may take time to get over but m not going to be sad he's amazing and i really do love him i just really hope he knows that and i hope he relaly loves me as much as he says

so i looked somewhere i shouldnt have and found something i didnt want to and now i have a sudden change in feelings and a huge wall i have to build

...and the woooorrrrssstttt part is i can't even say anything about it beacuse technically i shouldnt be looking where i was.

but really i waslooking for something else..

ughhh.

i really like ice pops ( liket he freezer pops the liquid ones that turn into ice in your freezer) and i really like lo mein so someone should bring me some soon

i've had alot on my mind lately and i have done absolutly nothing with it. I havent been writing or painting or drawing or even shooting that much film. I need a reinvention of my self. I slept till 11 today it was nice. Ive been working alot lately it's not too bad it just stresses me out alot alot alot ( Read more... )

loves not supposed to hurt
but i guess some times it does?

i'm going to lose the boy im in love with soon i know it and it's killing me.

the past few days haven't been too bad ( Read more... )

yesterday made me smile huge ( Read more... )

yet again I am up and awake way to early for my own good ( Read more... )

so yesterday we tore down 16 trees in kathy schells back yard

this morning my legs r cut up and my bodys sore

last night chrissy and i went with james and his friends to the cliff

suprisingly we had alot alot of fun

i like his friends

today more yard work oh boy

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