i've never felt so lonely in my life.

a mess.
i've realized that i cant take care of myself
and i'm falling apart.

i dont like you at all. i dont know you at all. and i dont want to know you at all ( Read more... )

monday: went christmas shopping all day with mom & grandma ( Read more... )

i tried to be the one that everybody loved
where has that gotten me?
i tear myself to shreds to prove that I'm someone
that I could never be.

today wasn't so great.

my birthday is tomorrow.
& today i'm going to universal studios,
i've never been there.
except for prom, but that was city walk.
same thing sorta? idk.
so at 3:30 PM tomorrow [sunday]
i'll be nineteen. shiz. 

i want to go to Brooks,
really bad,
again.

i'll be having a talk with my dad this weekend,
and we'll see.
can't wait :D

Dell Dimension B110 desktop for sale
15 inch flat screen
20GB storage
good computer, but i dont want it.
so please buy it from me.
$1000

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i just came home to find mac sleeping in my bed.
he always finds a new way to get up there.
sneaky sneakyyyyy.

so the weekend
went to my dads,
saw my grandma, every day she gets worse.
she's falling apart and wants the kids to let her die :/
i met jen's bf ryan for the first time,
he wasn't bad at all.
he's actually pretty cool, besides the fact that he ( Read more... )