yeah, so im using the librarys computer because mine hasnt come yet. stupid little kids are looking at what im typing, so im going to type it in white. my mom just rorally pissed me off. so i was dricing and shes giving me all this #### about what im doing wron g and mkaking me nervous and it ####### drove me crazy so i just left and came up to the ( Read more... )

this computer is retarded. it would let me use the rich text editor. anyway, justin now has a thing with marissa. it really hurts me because i still like him more than anything. i wanted so badly for something to work out between us. and now...its like we never even knew each other. he said to me that im a bitter mean person...and that line has ( Read more... )

i graduate tomorrow morning at 9 ( Read more... )

4 days until i graduate. its so fucking insanely surreal. i dont know how to react to it.

supposedly i get my computer saturday, but i dont know if its actually going to be here in time.

my mom isnt going to die from her cancer. i dont know if i wrote that already or not, but i think its wonderful.

Grief for dead teen


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its like, everyday i float form place to place, but i dont belong anywhere. i think thats what im looking for, somewhere to belong. im quite distressed because i think that me and kyle really dont have what we thought we did. my mom starts chemotherapy today, and pretty soon she'll lose her hair, and be hella weak and sick, and its going to be ( Read more... )

havent written that much lately, probably because ive been going through a shitload of shit. wow, that sounds lame.

first off, kyle and i broke up but were cool with each other. we both realized that this is for the best and we wil lbe together again in the near future.

secondly, my mom decided that justin was this horrible person (which he isnt) ( Read more... )

kyle and i broke up and i am completely numb and empty. i dont know what to do. i never wanted to see that hurt look in his face and have him shaking as badly as he was. he really truly loves me and i broke his heart. i didnt mean to, he doesnt understand that we need this. that we need time apart. i love you kyle. i really do. i hope youll realize ( Read more... )

senior projects are done. you have no idea how unstressed i am.

i refuse to be in a relationship that is more of a burden than something that is enjoyable. im sick of kyle making me feel like shit for hanging out with my FRIENDS. its not fair to me. i gave up so much for him, and i want my freedom back. i dont want things to be like this. i dont want to lose him but i cant take things being like this. and i ( Read more... )