Having no trust is such a fucking pain in the ass ( Read more... )

I'm sooo bringing back the LJ..

"I've been roaming around, always lookin' down at all I see ( Read more... )

"...where there was nature and earth, life and water, I saw a desert landscape that was unending, resembling some sort of crater, so devoid of reason and light and spirit that the mind could not grasp it on any sort of conscious level and if you came close the mind would reel backward, unable to take it in. It was a vision so clear and real and ( Read more... )

What am I doing with this life? This mechanism called body, this supposed free will, this intelligence, this open mind? This capacity to grow and evolve? What will I choose to do with this life? When will I find a passion, a desire, something that makes me want to get out of bed in the morning? I don't know what form it took prior to 2007 but I ( Read more... )

Sometimes I like to share stories I've read that really meant something ( Read more... )

If it's not one thing, it's a-fucking-nother ( Read more... )

It breaks my heart knowing that this is the right thing to do.

But I don't know how I'm going to handle sleeping next to you every night knowing that pretty soon your side of the bed will be empty.

All I want to is to not be so fucked up.

So I'm sitting here at work researching all kinds of financial advice. It seems that money and finances are pretty much all that I think about when my mind has a chance to wander these days. Even when it doesn't, money is the topic in my head in some form or fashion. After all this shit has happened, the reality of how unstable life can be is all I ( Read more... )

It's the sad realization that everything I do, more or less, is merely a feeble attempt at a distraction from the thought of you.