I think about a lot of you, often

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Shit's weird. I cried just an hour ago and it was mostly out of embarrassment and being disgusted with myself. I am constantly seeking out sex, substances - I just want to be subdued by everything. And my partner can't help me. And I can't help them ( Read more... )

I started my new teaching job. It is really great. I tutor children with mild learning disabilities reading comprehension. A lot of them have dyslexia, ADD, autism, and others are just there for extra tutoring for the summer time. One of my students yesterday kept saying, "I hate summer school. When is this class over? This is ruining my summer. I ( Read more... )

Spent the last 3 days drinking and drinking and drinking ( Read more... )

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I wish I could somehow conjure up my old self through this journal.

I know that's ultimately what I want. I know that's all I am reaching for these days.

Get back to yourself.

Your truest self.

It's been many years but this journal is my home. I need to write here, again, all the time, starting now ( Read more... )

 So, things didn't turn out as I thought they would 3 years ago.

Big deal.

HERE WE ARE, AN ATLANTA EVENING.

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