i feel as though im on the verge of a mental breakdown. i never felt anything as pure and as real as the feeling i felt when i was with you. i dont know why.when i first met you outside the church i knew i had to be with you. i keep remembering things youve said to me but instead of you saying them to me youre saying them to her. katie. the girl ( Read more... )

hello?
anyone there?

to whom it may concern ( Read more... )

im happy.

more and more i am reminded of why it is a made a name that says i hate life ( Read more... )

i just want to talk to you. its 430 you cant possibly be sleeping this late.
why is this happening again? and why do i feel lost again? i hope this all gets better.
no, i need this all to get better. i need you to keep loving me.

sean and i just went through what i guess you could call a rough pactch ( Read more... )

ive always said i was a fuck up. and ive never said i was a good person. and its funny how everyone can look at you honestly when you say something like that and deny it. and i dont like telling people of the dumb things i do. but i guess if someone were to ask i would tell them[best i could]. never once did i say i was innocent and never once did ( Read more... )

so im at school right now trying to writer an email to sean and im sup[osed to tell him what i thinkablahblahblah and i cant. what the fuck is wrong with me? why cant i tell him how i feel? and hwy cant i tell him whats wrong? why am i so scared?

sean and i got in a fight last night. we've never fought. we've never really disagreed on anything. the reason was dumb and i was upset. but when im upset with people i cant talk to them. i just cant do it. ive never been able to. i bascially ignore the person for a day then its over. done. i dont think of it again. i dont deal with things by ( Read more... )