so wow havent been on this thing in fucking a really long time. thought it would be alot eayiser to journal and not have to write it out in my journal cause i always seem to get hand cramps.

well, lets seee so iv been down in ft. lauderdale florida for almost 7 months which will be on the 15th, im clean and sober for 7 months on the 12th, went to ( Read more... )

i cant fucking deal with this anymore theres noone for me to talk to or scream at cause all the shit thats going on, it all started with matt and me trying to make him happy and get nothing in return to my knowledge he had been cheating on me, i thought i was happy with him now my parents are getting a divorce. and even my so called " family " ( Read more... )

im a complete mess and extremely confused
not to add all the other shit that happened
no boyfriend, got cheated on
iv become way to emotional
and i just wanna move out of state, where noone knoes me
and i was supposed to go to a prom tomrrow night
second time iv gotten the dress and shoes and got dumped
now i need a date for my prom. hmph

really fucking cool, go away from thur-sunday and then dont even wanna bother seeing me, cause u have to do a paper, maybe you should have done that b4 u decided to go visit a friend and get drunk every night plus blow me off for some girls birthday dinner who you hadrly speak to or i dont kno you still talk to them ( Read more... )

hmm so i basically feel like im getting completely ditched, well in my head at least. the boyfriend went to a girls birthday dinner that he has hardly hung out with at all the past few months when he literally was 3 min from my house at van saun park from playing baseball. lovely right you would think he would take his gf? hmmmm am i that ( Read more... )

hmm havent updated this in a reeally long time ( Read more... )

what he said last night he was right, the things we do for attention when we are alone in hoping that someone will bust the door open and say "wtf are you doing" actually caring about you is what we all are looking for, that one person that you want to care about you and that you do the stupidest shit just so they will actually see you, in hoping ( Read more... )

its funny how shit happens
could be good, then again could be bad
well neways my birthday is in like 38 days
not like im counting or nething

im out gotta get my eyebrows waxed
posting a longer entry later
peaceee<3

the part that confusses me the most is that when iv finally come to terms and gotten over something, and im still not happy.

i miss him
fucking sucks ass