I don't know why I still get the urge to write in this thing. I guess because for so long it was my place to come to rant and rave and cry and laugh and everything else that I wanted to say, but only to a few people. I don't really feel like this is the place for that anymore. There are things going on that I want to put into words and it's sad to ( Read more... )

Things are better than good, but I'm hesitant and am not willing to put too much thought into some things. I'm not liking this whole being in limbo thing. I feel like I can't make plans for much since in less than 6 months, I'll be leaving for a year. A lot changes in a year. But for now, I will thoroughly enjoy my life and my severely awesome ( Read more... )

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And if I'm the cause for me,
Next time I'll be braver,
I'll be my own savior,
Standing on two feet.

I won't let you close enough to hurt me, no.
I won't ask you, you to just desert me.
I can't give you what you think you gave me.
It's time to say goodbye to turning tables.

The more and more I am told by him how shitty of a person I am and how worthless I am makes me more and more sure that I am actually an awesome person. Not to mention the countless people who have told me this over the past month. Even people whom I had just met sat there and told me that there's just something about me that makes me awesome. I ( Read more... )

Can NOT get over how amazing my life is. That is all.

I just had the best fucking weekend! I seriously love my friends. They are great. To say my weekend was a success would be an understatement.

I’d rather be lonely
I’d rather have no love
Then to know love like this
And if I know one thing
It’s that I’d rather have nothing
Then to hold on to something
That just don’t exist

David does not care anymore. He does not love me and who's to say he ever did? All I know is that he is toxic and will only continuously hurt me if I do not leave. He's immature and has a lot of issues he needs to work out on his own. So this is it, I'm going to go start myself a new and better life. I do not deserve to be treated like I don't ( Read more... )

This is the last Thursday that I will be spending alone :)
He's coming home and I still don't believe it.

We've come to an agreement. We've listed the pro's and the con's and in the end, the pro's outweigh the con's. David has determined he will be reenlisting for real. Before it was just a possibility, nothing for certain. Germany will be at the top of our wish list followed by Italy and Colorado ( Read more... )