i just want to say this.

i won't go farther until he says it.
i need those words.

i know i love him.

...he just needs to tell me he loves me.

...

i AM in love.

fuck everything else.

you know, sometimes i feel as if missy and i are drifting apart, and our friendship is just fading away ( Read more... )

I really kind of wish I knew if he loves me.

I don't want to risk saying it without hearing it back.

Almost 9 months.

Jesus.

I wonder if we'll make it through college. Together.

Not that we are going to the same place. Well, I might go to Northwestern for my engineering stuff, but I mean, thats only two years.

Hm. I really wonder.

I hate this feeling.

Please. For once.

I just want to feel abso-fucking-lutly right about something.

I just feel like something is going to wrong.

For some reason... I don't think he feels the same way.

=/

Ugh.

I really, really, really don't want to fall back on old habits.

This sucks.

I want school to be over now.

i. think. i've. fallen. for. him.

i wonder if he's feeling the same way.

ummmm. i'm not going to lie.
I don't want him to do it.
I just don't.

Sorry I'm selfish.
But I don't think I'd be able to do it.
No, I know I won't.

UGH.

you won't get it.

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Ha ha ha.

How does it feel to have done to you what you have done to me?

Karma is a bitch, isn't she?

Oh, but I do love her.