My feelings for you shame me into silence. The truth of this and your name will never be revealed. It is you who has made me realize the failure of my life. The thought of you fills me with longing and at the same time, a burning humiliation that produces scar tissue and dead brain cells. Your existence mocks me and I am unable to confront this. ( Read more... )

i swore to you i'd leave before you yet ( Read more... )

at sixteen, i was illegal and brilliant ( Read more... )

what i really hate is that every single hour that passes by is agony because it's another hour farther away from the last time i saw rachel. everything i do feels wrong, i don't feel like a whole person. i don't feel like a real person. i dread going back to regular life because that will make this entire nightmare feel real ( Read more... )

the way to get what you want is not by pretending you already have it.

when you start to know someone, all their physical characteristics start to disappear. You begin to dwell in their energy, recognize the scent of their skin. You see only the essence of the person, not the shell. That’s why you can’t fall in love with beauty. You can lust after it, be infatuated by it, want to own it. You can love it with your eyes ( Read more... )

YOU WHO NEVER ARRIVED ( Read more... )

while the day outside glides by like ticker tape,
the night brings violets,
tapestries of eyes,
lights,
the soft anonymous
talkers: 'you all right?'
the starched, inaccessible beast.
dead egg, I lie
whole
on a whole world I cannot touch

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SO MANY PEOPLE SUCK SO HARD. SO HARD. AND I WANT TO HURT THEM. I WANT THEM TO GET THE FUCK OUT OF MY FACE. SERIOUSLY. YIKES ( Read more... )