my dad pretty much told me
that we cant afford anything anymore
he told me not to expect a prom dress out of them...

he said their credit card debt is really high
and they keep calling my house
and i guess they called my dad on his phone...

so basically,
i'm fucking poor.
and i cant deal with it.

i dont know what to do.

wow so my goodness! alot has happened.

well. i got into a car accident on friday. it was in the parking lot @ school and it was during lunch. if you want deets, IM me--smasn frggn duh
i now have a phobia of driving.

i've come to the conclusion that i cant live without cheese & crackers, pasta, and soy milk. i used to think soy milk was absolutely ( Read more... )

alright well. i had some sweet ass plans for tonight. i was gonna go party it up after work. wellllll my mom decided to be stupid and say no and tried telling me it was too late. ok wow it was like quarter after 10 and i asked if i could sleep at alicia's house... only i wasnt going to be there. anyway and i was like um no its not curfew is 11 and ( Read more... )

things are good.
however i've been crabby lately. well just today. idk. i thinkkkk something is uppp but i cant say because idk for sure.
but i really dont feel like doing anything. feel really fat lately. like i feel so disgusting... haha its like matt all over again. =X

anyway idk i just want to... be anorexic. well not really. i just want to not ( Read more... )

scratch that.

i like him.
so fucking much.
i was lost.

im found =]

wowowowow so alot happened. well friday. i hung out with clint.... till i had to work at 6. work was gay, and then afterwards at like 1030 i went bowling with him, macey, some girl idk, manda, and jake. it was really fun i was happy the whole time  and omg. it was just amazing. then i took clint home and went home and went on the computer at like ( Read more... )

okay. update.

so im over matt. he's just a jerk to me. i'd like to be friends with him and all, but its just hes a jerk so im like whatever. so anyway point blank: jerk.

welllll so his cousin and I started talking recently, and i always thought he was cute... lol well were going out and im so excited hes so amazing. hes alot more chill than matt and ( Read more... )

anyways so like what i was saying. i couldnt fall asleep and stuff and i seriously felt like i had restless legs syndrome because they kept twitching and everything in my body was tingling and i couldnt stop it made me so mad and matt kept yelling at me and i was crying and i thought i freaked out manda. but anyway and so i couldnt sleep and i kept ( Read more... )

okay. so saturday when i came back from work, my mom found a condom wrapper on my headboard of my bed. she bobby pinned it to a note and it said that she felt like she was really let down and that she was disappointed in me. well she was all fine when her, my dad, and our fam friend dropped me off at kelsey's for her birthday party. well my phone ( Read more... )

things are better, for now.
matt and i dont talk about the near future.
but we did have two fun days in a row
we just laughed alot
and we usually never do that
and we watched 300
and we took pictures
and i'm so in love.

and she's so pretty
and shes so sure
maybe i'm more clever
than a girl like her
the summer's all in bloom,
the summer is ending soon...
ITS ALL ( Read more... )