I am really pretty happy right now. There are parts of my life that drive me insane, but there are things that make me happy beyond belief. I really just want everything to work out, and for it all to be good and set.  Nervous? for some reason, yes. and I am not too sure about how things with turn out, with friends, with goals, etc. But for the ( Read more... )

changing my mind, changing it. It makes things complicated. 
Not so great Fridays? We make them fun. I like my friends. <3

I am going to be so sad on Monday. The feeling of not having any responsibility (with the exception of music and English projects...) makes me wonder when else in my life I will be able to do this. I mean, in a few years, every moment of my life will be coordinated with other peoples' schedules, and other people will be dependent on me. All the ( Read more... )

I hate how after spending a lot of time with friends and stuff, I suffer from "friend withdrawal" or whatever, and I get really numb to things areound me. I think I just need motivation, because sometimes I am not too good at motivating myself. I think there are a lot of things in my life that I need to fix. I think I say that too often, but I ( Read more... )

Spring Break in two days. TWO DAYS. 
Oey's party? Who all is  going?
I think... my thoughts falter too much, and I question what i do or don't want too much.

It's the AZN Nigga fuck the rest
Dallas to New York Jigga we're the best
Vietnam to Japan to Mongolia
Philippines to Taiwan to Cambodia
Korea Ah Ah
Home town China who you got Huh
You got shit Nigga ( Read more... )

I don't recall what I was going to say in here. I had something mapped out, everything I was going to say, and how I was going to say it. And now I have forgotten. Curse my forgetfulness.
I still don't know how I can stop myself from screwing things up. 
S&E is friday. ewew. We don't exactly sound spectacular. um. at all.
IIII want to read a really ( Read more... )

Sometimes, I don't know.

The folk festival wasn't as bad as expected. It wasn't amazing or anything, but it did make me realize some things.  lot of things. And I kind of got sucked into running another teen workshop next year. But I had one today (and didn't know I was going to until last night), and we basically just jammed.  
Also,  this ( Read more... )

I don't know that repression is exactly the word I am looking for. Because the influence on the other end is pretty subconcious as well. I feel like I worry too much about how other people are going to be affected by my decisions before I even let my self feel things. Maybe I am just being selfish right now? Other times, I feel like I should take ( Read more... )

TYPETYPE. I am going to get carpal tunnel. I have been putting off doing these English assignments forever, and now I have about 238247374 papers to type. greeeaaaat.
and seriously, who pries like this?
"5. What are the conflicts, hassles, and stresses in your life? Describe them. What do you do about them-or what are you going to do?"
"8. Describe ( Read more... )

I suppose I am pretty hypocritical, since I tell people not to overcontemplate things on a daily basis, but I think maybe it is just something your mind automatically does, even if I try to make it stop. I mean, I don't think of myself as deep or insightful, just overly cautious. But then there are those times when I think things to myself, and ( Read more... )