i  cant believe he showed up at my friends appartment ( Read more... )

 there is something about a pint of ice cream and a favorite record 
that really just cures the feeling of anything.

hes says hes liked me since freshman year but this boy, 
eh, this player, is not one to be believed but i kinda want to.
hes such a sweet heart and not to mention a looker,
but what the hell am i supposed to do if he doesnt call me

and if ( Read more... )

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 i wish i didnt fall so hard for people i dont even know.
hes so amazing.
terrible taste in music,
but who doesnt have that this day and age?

i want to be in love so badly.
i think i could be forcing myself to think i really like him,
then again its so genuine.
its the butterflies, the headrush, the honesty;
that makes me realize how long its been since ( Read more... )

so im really supposed to be okay in seattle 
while hes deciding to stay in that godforsakenly amazing place? 
thats not really fair.
and i really wish that not everyone thought he was their best friend.
hes not.
hes mine and sams.

well, while everything spirals out of control,
i hope he is happy with this decision.
cause im fucking suffering with

well, well, well.

the last weekend a bit of a blur, the days ran together.
recovering, slowly, so i can work tomorrow.
at seven pm. so late.

recently, ive been loathing a certain person from a small town in washington.
just because of the fact that i dont want them, but at the same time...
i do?
but of course i cant tell them that, it would get ( Read more... )

man ( Read more... )

i really dont want to hear my dad cry anymore.
and i want my mom to come home.

god, how old am i, five?

i shouldnt care.

i really cant believe their doing this again.
again, they're getting divorced.
again, they are fighting.
i just want it to either happen, fianally.
or i want it to stop fucking coming up.

im sick of feeling like i should have feelings about this situation,
but i just fucking dont.
i dont care if they split or if they dont.
i just want to curl up with a boy ( Read more... )

now.
at the beginning he said he was an asshole.
i didnt believe him.
i heard how bad he fucked her over.
but i didnt think a thing of it.
i didnt get attached. i said love, but i didnt mean it.
then it was over.
i was hurt,
but i fucking lived.
i didnt get why everyone was so 
"broken up" about him all the time.
i thought it was fucking pathetic.
then i find ( Read more... )