Here I go again:

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blaming myself.

I tried.
That's all I can really say.
And in all honesty, I didn't try all that hard;
because I'm heartless and cold.

I just don't care anymore for much of anything.
I know that something will be normal, for once, eventually, sometime, when I'm ready.

So, in all actuality, life probably won't even be normal.The last thing I

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[sexysmile4you]

no idea what this entry is about.
tried for what?
i sure hope you dont mean tried to be a good best friend.
i think you only care about your own happiness and well being.

now, you are in NC with a fresh start, no one knows how you are.
so you can meet all these new people who seem amazing at first, and be with a guy who fills all your hearts holes.

life is good jenna.
oh yes, no worries becuase you left all your problems in MI.

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You know better than to say I only care about my own happiness and well-being.
If you honestly meant that when you said that, you have lost your god-damned mind.

I'm not staying in NC, so, stop saying it's a new start with fake people.

And, lastly, life isn't all that good. But, it's not always meant to be easy, or happy, or "good."
I still have problems, no matter how hard I try to run from them.

[sexysmile4you]

and YOU know better than anyone that
i have lost my god-damned mind jenna.

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I'm sitting here,
and all I can do is cry.

Cry, and cry, and cry.
I don't know what happened. Or why I started crying.

I have no clue as to what I want anymore.
All I know, is I'm sick of having this false happiness,
and telling myself that I'm happy, when I'm really not.
It makes me want to die.

I feel so suffocated, and so lost.
I'm so far from everything I know, and the few people that act like they care, aren't the ones I want to care.