being depressed sucks.

9/17/08

I walk through the towering buildings that surround me, enclose me, constrict me. My pace is quick, heavy, sticky. I think of you all those miles away, and I smile, but I'm still alone creeping through the streets of my new home.
I tend to sit in the bustling calm of Washington Square Park alone between classes. The leaves have not yet begun ( Read more... )

i now have eight piercings. woah. halloween was cool, i was a bunny. i went to the parade, a house party and a club/bar. people were nice about my outfit... sometimes a little too nice. i can't wait to go home for thanksgiving. it'll be nice to sleep in a big bed and to drive and to be around people i love. i'm supposed to be studying for a midterm ( Read more... )

what's your name?
gigi.
i don't believe you.
i'm not lying.
god bless your parents!

so i love college, but my roommate's a cunt.
haaaay eak, i miss you.

fuck college a little bit. i'm not unhappy here, but i'm not happy by any means yet. i have yet to find my niche, and it kind of sucks a little bit. i don't know how to compel others to talk to me, and i don't know how to compel myself to talk to others. it's really difficult. i miss feeling whole. i miss youuuuuuuu.

i'm not doing so well with this... i'm not flat out bawling or anything, but i just have this distinct feeling that it will be difficult for me to let go of some things... and i'm freaking out a little bit about it. i want to just be free of this place, but i just can't allow that to happen ( Read more... )

dudee, so my family is here which is cool. i think i like callum best. we joke around. it's nice to feel like i have siblings... brothers, you know? whatever ( Read more... )

so basically fuck. big time. tonight was a mess. a huge mess. and now i don't even know what to think anymore. gaaaaaaahhhhhh life throws big ole curve balls atcha, and they always give me black eyes :-/, fuckfuckfuck.

i got a holga, so i'm hoping to take some cool pictures of people to make my dorm room feel more homey... i;m nervous about leaving i guess, so maybe this will make it easier. i'll have the people i love smiling down at me from the walls above me and it'll be tight. i'm also using my dad's camera which is a little more complicated so the pics could ( Read more... )