I try to find a way to learn something good out of every bad situation. I'm pretty sure this one is just the same as all the other situations I've been having. I see too much good in people. Then when I actually start to get to know them more I get disappointed in how they're acting because I already think so highly of them. I just need to stop ( Read more... )

ONE MORE DOWN. WHO'S NEXT?

So I went to Rockford this weekend to visit the Master's Commission I'm going to in September, and I can't believe how beautiful my future looks. I don't think I have ever been surrounded by so many positive influences in my entire life as much as I was that whole weekend. In every person that I met I saw a glimpse of what I long to be every ( Read more... )

As of today, in my eyes, I've never had a boyfriend, I'm a virgin, and I have no idea what I'm doing.

And sooner or later a fantastic guy that actually treats me with respect and makes me feel like I'm growing instead of failing is going to come along and have me start all over. I'm going to learn what it's like to actually be treated well, and I'm ( Read more... )

There' s so much out of life that I want. I wish I could just get up and do it, for once. Grow the balls, set the laziness aside, and just do what I want to do. I guess it would be a lot easier when I'm eighteen, but I'll be gone and dedicated to something else by then. I want to be more independent. I want to feel okay on my own. I'm sick of ( Read more... )

Not even two seconds after I posted that entry, it already happened again.
I don't understand it. I don't understand it at all.
It honestly never stops happening.

There is so much going on in my head right now, I can't even contain it all. I'm having reality check after reality check in a matter of two hours and I don't know where it's coming from. It's amazing how hard something can hit you. How blind you were for however long, and you didn't even realize it. I like to think that I'm being strong, but I'm ( Read more... )

Why are guys so attracted to slutty, raunchy, nasty, half naked, extremely wasted, totally easy, kiss up, pot smoking, cigarette puffing, groupie little scene girls? Are they seriously that attractive? What kind of a relationship are you friggen morons looking for? Lots of sex and lots of parties and then having them cheat on you [or vise versa]  ( Read more... )

I wish I could have a soundtrack to my life. I'm jealous of movies because they have background music.
This break is going amazingly well. I'm totally loving life right now. 
And I'm totally loving that I'm loving life right now.
Christmas was pretty good, I got my purity ring and it's amazing how strong it makes me feel.
I need to clean my room and I ( Read more... )

I'm going to make a difference.