so i always swore up and down that i wouldn't do the aol thing ever again.
i was wrong, with him it's so different. and honestly dont get it.

one more thing i was wrong about

i wish i could do the past 2 months over again.

because i sure as hell would change alot.

it seems like the people that mean the most to me, are just slowing leaving my life.

and maybe it is my fault for having this huge wall built around me.

but i really hate it

vince makes me fucking happy As The City Fell [11:14 PM]: i love you ( Read more... )

bullet to the head?
sure

i have to go to the doctors today to see why the hell my stomaches been like it is.

i hope to god it isn't what i think, because i will bellyflop onto cement

ok. bye.

i swear cold weather brings back the most horrible memories of my life.
and the hits just keep coming

i'm so tired of getting hurt by him

i dont know what the hell is going on

and i've never been so emotional/confused/happy in my life

i hope you never forget the tapping at your window
With the harsh cold and the jealousy
running through my bones
We were both selfish, but I think I was more

I would like to thank you, for showing me
A part of myself that I have never seen
Yeah, we were young and dumb, but it still was fun
And I guess these things just tend to fall apart

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so how about me being in the point of my life where every decision i make is the wrong one?

it sucks and i can't take much more.

i'm seriously contemplating on going back to painkillers.

and i know now just about how low that is.