EDIT:My life instantly had meaning the first time he held my hand. &its not me being sappy, its just the truth. &the only thing, to date, that explains my sudden life changes. I'm so excited that after all these years of hoping, I finally found out that real, unconditional, meant-to-be love IS real. Imagine if you saw God, real hard physical ( Read more... )

why is it we have vaccine for chickenpox&surgery to correct genetically bad noses &yet NO vaccine for hate or a pill that gives charisma?

My apartment is a wreck &so am I.
&I cannot find the motivation to get back up.

Can someone explain to me why today hurts like hell?

I'm turning my empty apartment into a home today.
I've never had a home.

I heard your new "singer" today.
&I always knew you couldn't make it.

Its gonna hurt when you hear me on the stereo.
Its gonna hurt like hell. Good.

Today, I feel completely at peace.
just like that.

I'm so scared "Nobody Girl" by R.A. is about me.

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You know, I always was afraid of growing up; looking back into old journals.
&you know what. I was right.

I didn't survive it. Not yet, I haven't.