im so happy

i was looking for perfection
and all i found was dissapointment.
i stopped looking for perfection
and just started looking
turns out
in the eyes of the beholder
perfections never lost.

you have a way of force feeding me nothing
yet making me understand whats really there
just push a little deeper to uncover the truth
and pull a little harder to trail your thoughts
to the brink of the world.

im sick.
and i feel like shit.
im achy all over.
and my nose is all stuffy.
and my head hurts.
boo
:[

i love the smell of chlorine on my skin.
and i love swimming.
i started again today.
and im excited.
its like a change.
which i desperately need.
:]

05' has held some of the best memories of my life. best friends. best enemies. huge fights. reunions. new experiences. and the people that were with me the whole way through. heres to a new year. new experiences. new everything!.

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if there is any truth to a long lived lie. then speak now. speak soflty. the honesty lies not in the heart. but in the beauty of it all. for beauty is skin deep. scratching at the surface waiting to be let out ( Read more... )

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drink till your drunk.
fuck till you cant feel it.
smoke till you pass out.
and LIVE YOUR FUCKING LIFE!

so this is what its like huh
to be lost in a world with nothing
to be completely and utterly alone
i could get used to this
this nothingness
this emptiness
i like crying myself to sleep
over things i have no control of
i kinda like the feeling in the pit of my stomach
telling me somethings wrong
ill get used to it my way.

in an empty array of phsycadellic light
sitting my ass on this 4 am flight
waiting to go home

interpretations of nothing
falling to deaf ears
wanting to hear you

eyes rolled back to the back of my mind
thinking of a better time
wishing for it all to end.

so kill me now.

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