i dont have any clue what to do.
WHAT THE FUCK

to feel something growing inside of you
is such an amazing feeling.
its like your whole being is being twisted
around into something new
into the creation of life.

im going to be a mommy :]

i love my life.
right now at this very moment in time.
there is absolutely nowhere in the world i would rather be
nothing i would rather be doing
and nobody i would rather be doing it with.
im in love with my surroundings.
my friends
and ultimately..
im so in love with my life its unreal.

i feel like i am susupended intermittently above my body
my mind has cast aside its influx of ironic thoughts
i suppose this could be more or less a warning
yet, this is definitely not the warning i have sought.

I am an idiot. I know you can see right through me, like my skin is paper thin. can you see the blood in my veins, rushing by in an attempt to get as far away from you as possible? I am NOT dependent on this. I will NOT go back.
im just trying to make things right in my world.

on a lighter note..I got another job!
I am now, in addition to being a ( Read more... )

i fell last night
trying to walk inside after smoking
and busted my lip on a door.
i have a humongous bruise on the side of my leg
because i fell on a plant.
oh vodka
look what you do to me

friendship makes or breaks the time
when were lying side by side
you touch my hair
i think out loud
what happens next?
this is my sweet fairy tale
my lonely night
what happens next?
if only you would see
just what youve done with me
theres still a spot there
thats wearing down and stripped bare
im naked on the inside
thrown out for all to see
cast ( Read more... )

give me your excuses
come on i can take them.
im a big girl
all grown up
and youre spouting shit
like you were constipated.
all my life i waited
on someone just like you
to catch me when i fell
and not just to fall too.
but when it comes right down to it
what did i expect?
nothing more
and nothing less
than exactly what you gave me
heartache and confusion
just ( Read more... )

i love the weather here. :D

i have not touched livejournal in the longest time..i dont think ive written in here for well over a year...maybe two. i had to restart an email address that got deleted just to get my password. i have no clue on earth what it was before. im not sure anyone still uses this place..but i dont really mind. i just like being able to keep a blog/journal ( Read more... )