so whats the us in living. when all you think of is dying. and yesterday's weight of regret keeps you in your bed. in your bed as if there were no time. but still the people move on . and the lovers dont wait. and they're passing you by. the showers run cold and youre all alone. ..     you're always alone

i dont update anymore. but i am tonight. because i wanted to say sorry to vanessa. .. i didnt mean what i put i was just jealous of you and nolan. ..  and.  i know sorrys dont change anything. but, i really do feel bad.  and if i could take it back. i would.  and yeah, im a whore for writing something that wasnt true. ..   it was just in spite. and ( Read more... )

all i know is that what im doing isnt working.  i need a new thing. i need a new me.

boys down the street are smoking bud..  .. i want some.

Man it takes a silly girl to lie about the dreams she has
Lord it takes a lonely one to wish that she had never dreamt at all

i dont like what im seeing tonight. ive made a satisfying mistake, one i promised ide never again make..

i dont want to care about you anymore, and i dont want to have to try not to anymore.  its getting hard, ..  and i love you.

i havent really talked about the things ive been up to lately.
most the time nothing exciting happens,well, all the ( Read more... )

theres alot thats wrong.    .. .. .    ........my brains been cleared. with a click of a mouse.

everythings erased. .. [

i dont know why i do the things i do..

::just wish i could stop.::

But now we speak with ruined tongues
And the words we say aren’t meant for anyone
It’s just a mumbled sentence to a passing acquaintance
But there was once you

if you had a gun. what would you use it for?...

cant help but be jealous..

i want to move back to merced, california.   nothings going to change the way i feel. and if ide of never met you, ide of never wanted to stay in the first place.

______________________ i had a bad day, again.

i still dont like those girls. yeah the ones that have the things i dont have. akldfjalsj id love to be anyone but me.   anyone.

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idk, people make me feel worthless.

almost feel better
but, betters no excuse for tonight
you see, it's never bad enough to
just leave or give up
but it's never good enough to feel right

your silent but strong,
and your noticing nothing again