all hope is pretty much lost and i hate, absolutely hate how you make me feel...i wish you realized how ignorant you are, how fucking pathetic you are...and maybe one day i'll realize how foolish i am for staying by you...it's a waste of my time, and now i've just wasted my life...god help me.

j.hub and i watched dead end tonight with our fave guys bentley and the other justin...whom both have the mentality of 3 year olds, but i love them...they make me laugh...alot...except tonight...i was genuinely scared. i can't wait for summer to come back around...i just realized that i haven't written in here since post summer, when it was all ( Read more... )

i need to tackle this. i'm sick of swolen knuckles and neverending defenses...i'd rather be 6 feet under sometimes, how cliche...i know, but how true....everything is so bland...and nothing matters anymore, i find happiness in fake smiles and deeper cuts....i'm done, pain just isn't thrilling anymore.

( california, here we come. )

FRIENDS ONLY. BITCHES.