hello depressed. all this week i've avoided my friends, and even my boyfriend because i fell so fat and down in the dumps. i'm still the exact same weight as i was the end of november. i was almost down to 125lbs half way through dec. and i've gained it all back. purging does work i tell you what, and i haven't been, but despite the urge to do it i ( Read more... )

hey. it's been a long time since my last journal entry. my computer crashed and i've only got it up and running in the past couple of weeks. christmas was really busy. i'm doing ok i suppose. i haven't been binging or purging at all. i've actually been eating pretty "normal" and exercising. i guess it was my attempt to recover. but it's rendered me ( Read more... )

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hey. shitty way to start the day but good motivation. 48 hour fast. i need to get my shit together.

hey. i just purged a rather large diner. i'm feeling a little sick. but clean, very clean. hmm..today went well i supose. i have my yogurt and banana. then i had an apple and proceeded to eat a muffin. before i had half the muffin in me i stopped myself. i felt a binge comming on and i stopped it. it felt good. but i purged the little muffin i ate ( Read more... )

hey. so i weighed in today at 135. so nothing has changed, i know i just have to be patient. mmm...so yeah. i fasted for 24 hours. it went pretty good. i wanted to go longer, isn't that the way it always is though. i miss that so much...that feeling. i broke it with an apple then shortly after i had some thai soup w/out the oil. i know that with ( Read more... )

hey. first things first, here are my stats ( Read more... )