"i was going nowhere, going nowhere fast..."  (-thank you Jordan Catalano)
i just kind of thought about what that  meant. 
it kind of applies. i'm going nowhere like this
im not getting what i want and i never will at this rate.

this year i will: 
-try not to overthink things too much 
-try not to overreact 
-try to be more open minded
-try to hear less ( Read more... )

everyone has their shit- their issues that need to be "fixed". I've always thought that if I fixed mine, a major part of me, if not all of me, would be missing. i would be lost. totally and completely outside myself and i wouldn't know what to make of whatever was left. i was so scared to live without my shit that i didn't realize that i wasn't ( Read more... )

something about my chemical romance- old my chemical romance, not the new queen-ripoff shit- is calming. well, perhaps calming isnt the best word. it's comforting. i guess thats better. gerard way is really fucked up. like more fucked up then i ever thought. and that's comforting. its exciting. its rejuvenating. it brings me back to life- life in a ( Read more... )

http://i122.photobucket.com/albums/o266/hihilauren/jaredchristmas.jpg   <---- merry christmas!

and through it all, they all cloud your mind with the notion that these are "the best days of your life". and you swallow up their bullshit like it's fucking thanksgiving day, and you wash it all down with some goddamn potent wine, in hopes hold on to the bliss of your ignorance for just a few more pathetic and wasted hours. but once your drunk ( Read more... )

 
is anyone good with fish or know anything about fish? 
my fish has a white bubble thing over one of his eyes and i dont know what it is or what to do. 
poor bob. 
if anyone has any idea what it could be or what to do, feel free to let me know. thanks =/

its that time once again- the ending of the year.

so this year was definitely an odd one. I went through my “I’m not going to the mall because I’ll get raped” phase- just one of many. It’s funny thinking about how many things happened this last year- how many things changed. It’s funny how a few months ago, the people that were so important to you ( Read more... )

today, i went back and read all of my live journal entries, back until like oct. of last year. 
i wanted to see what i was doing on this day one year ago. unfortunately, i didnt post an entry exactly on this day. oh well.
id advice people to read back on old entries. its a good reflecting and learning process. and its funny. 
i was all about partying ( Read more... )

mission 8
http://www2.fanscape.com/30stm/ecard.aspx

i realized (of course, those are the first words of my entry- typical) today that im afraid of people, so afraid of them because i think that they'll treat me and talk about me  the way i used to treat and talk about people. years ago, in middle school (like that was oh so long ago), i guess even in elementary school, i was an asshole. i talked ( Read more... )