This week flew by. I'm beyond unhappy; I just want my boyfriend back. I'm so lonely, and there is NO ONE there to fill this void I've got. I've just been spending all of my time at the barn; seriously, thank GOD for this sport of mine that it's impossible to spend too much time doing. Through everything I've been through, all I've ever had to do is ( Read more... )

I can't stop crying. Everything, EVERYTHING reminds me of him. My own fucking clothes can somehow manipulate my thoughts into being directed toward him. All of his stuff is scattered in my room. Princeton Junction train station reminded me of the time we went to pick Mike up there and then went to a party. I pass through Highstown and think about ( Read more... )

I've managed to make yet another boy hate me;
we kiss on the mouth but still cough down our sleeves.

No more Jason. No more Sammie. No more Heather. No more Kerry.

I don't know where they are, but they're sure as hell not making an effort to be a part of my life.

I can't blame Matt, he didn't do this to me. Friendships take two to make it work and one to destroy it.

Have a good day, everyone, 'cause I'm sure as hell not going to.

Thank god for my horse ..

I can't sleep. What have I fucking done. I woke up this morning and he was the first thing I thought of, as usual, but instead of getting happy I got the most sickening feeling in my stomach. I miss him.

Today was lovely. Beach with Brian Nikki and Jason. We went to surf taco and layed on the beach for a few hours. A really nice way to spend a Thursday. Fought with Matt again, he's just giving me a headache. Whatevvvvaaa

This spring break has been very uneventful ( Read more... )

I'm so hurt right now in more ways than imaginable. I love the thought of Matt. I love having a boyfriend. I don't like feeling like shit. I don't like feeling insignificant. I need someone who cares as much about me as I do them, and in this case it would mean worshiping the ground I walk on. I'm settling, but I still can't convince myself I ( Read more... )

I can't wait for my clothes to come. I feel summery already ( Read more... )