i miss this...
i'm going to start writing here again.

i am the fucking common denominator.

i still want you.

my tumblr account has taken all of my livejournal time away :(

the other night i had a thought.. a thought about why i'm still emotionally stuck on mike. maybe i'm not ready either. hhmmmmm... i thought that maybe because i know he will not ask me to marry him. i know it wont work out. i know its not time for him. or possibly some subconscious knowing that we will never work. these are reasons why i stay in my ( Read more... )

i've gone back to my first and only love.

editing.

www.jkelley.tumblr.com  
(edit)    www.lovelesswrists.tumblr.com

there are things that you do that hurt me ( Read more... )

tonight ( Read more... )

i just made pasta. its got little bowties in it. and little tomatoes cut in halves. and fresh green beans that i snapped myself. and yummy subtle spices. i cook sometimes.

i just got asked out for new years.
but i will be with mike.

i wonder how i will feel about that next year.
i wonder how i will feel about that the next morning.

i tried reading my old posts right now
then i read my post from Dec 7, 2004.
i cried so hard that i couldnt keep reading.
i am going to bed now.

tomorrow...
i think i'll delete this journal.

these memories are stabbing.