this is still my favorite picture of us

i want to go back here...

http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v297/__afireinside__/rdwd14.jpg

i wonder if we can

im not sure i know how anymore but
....

i'd do anything.

today
xmas shopping
wrapping
danny and jen
bought a surprise xmas tree
mike
islands
i'd like to be with you when i'm ready
dione
right next to culver city
excercise machine
tito's tacos
funny sex stories
poetry lounge
cramps
holding hands
home
playing with conan
kisses
i love you
goodnight

"just thinkin of you while i watch the Lword like we used to with my laptop setup by the bed"

my heart melted.
i want to go home.
in your arms.
you in mine.
my home.
i can't wait.
but i promise..
      i will.

i dont know how to compete
with the rest of the world
that captivates you

the way you captivate me.

today i was happy.

Love recognizes no barriers. It jumps hurdles, leaps fences, penetrates walls to arrive at its destination full of hope. - maya angelou

last night ( Read more... )

today i set out to buy xmas presents. the only presents i got were cat toys and treats for conan's stocking. i went to jamba juice, the pharmacy, and then to target. i bought Girl,Interrupted for five dollars and went home. i lied down and watched the entire movie wishing two things. one, that i could do winona ryder. and two, that i didn't relate ( Read more... )

in my life i have never known anyone to stay. no one is a constant. it leaves me incredibly lonely. i know not to get too close to others because they probably won't be there for long. im starting to feel this with dione. and those who have tried to stay, i just push them away. the only person who has ever tried with me is ana. but we just don't ( Read more... )

i feel.

alone.

woke up at diones again today. woke up after a night of her gf saying/yelling she didnt want me there. she defended me which was good of her. but then she believed her gf's bullshit stories again and asked us to make up. im tired of being accused of shit im not doing. "oh its my own insecurities. it doesnt have to do with you." then stop treating ( Read more... )