Where are you tonight?  You're not here with me.  I spend so many of these nights on my own and it really hurts sometimes.  It gets so lonely.  I remember when you used to call for no reason other than hearing my voice.  Now I think you call because you feel obligated.  I wish I were still that for you.  I don't think I am and now this night is ( Read more... )

At one in the morning my eyes felt closed, but they weren't.  I tried killing time mostly by doing nothing.  That didn't work.  When I finally did fall asleep, I woke up a lot.  I woke up a lot worrying about you.  I kept feeling like something was wrong.  There wasn't much I could do except call you and wake you, but the more I thought about it, ( Read more... )

Never really let anyone know what you're thinking.  Never let on that you're worried or scared.  It's hard to do, but it works.  I have a lot of things to worry about, but no one will know and I'll seem happy and in control.  Calm.

I haven't been able to find my Hopesfall "Satellite Years" CD in maybe two and a half years.  I really liked this CD.  II probably let somebody borrow it like when I lended out my copy of  The Perks of Being a Wallflower.  I lended it to one person and without asking, they lended it someone else without asking.  I haven't seen that book in maybe ( Read more... )

I think it's time to take this journal in a new direction... not that I actually believe many people or any people read it.  I just decided that maybe I should chage it up for my own sake ( Read more... )