i think you are only getting a hint of understanding of how fortunate you are to have friends like that to talk with... hold onto those people. seriously. and sometimes it's even better not just to talk, but to be in each others presence and feed off any positive energy either can submit. I don't know Sarah, it sounds like you have some problems that need dealing with, and I think you kind of recognize that- and you want to reach out and take somebody's hand to help you... but you're unsure, and you're unsure how to have help, you feel like you are invalid/undeserving for help-- but you really do deserve it just as much as anyone else
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Thank you for that, really. It helped a lot. I don't know if it's my contacts or what you said that made tears come back to my eyes, but I do know that whatever it was, it was good. I appreciate my friendships, more than anything, because I know that, when the rest of my life is fluctuating from shitty to amazing and back to shitty, they'll be there for me to fall back on and vice versa. I think if it's a possibility that I think TOO much of my relationships with people, setting myself up for disappointment and false hope sometimes. Not with this girl though
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Re: my essayelatesubtractOctober 27 2004, 00:05:48 UTC
those kind of professionals are not for everyone. it's true. as long as you seek a 'good help' then that's fine. friends are therapy, in my opinion. Just be sure it's the right ones. as shitty as it sounds; some people just can't help and will lead you into a wrong direction. stay clear of those :) i think you can figure out who's there for you in positive ways and who's there just for the time being, though..
just to say... you may see these professionals as not knowing you (this is the case with MANY teens/young adults) or fully grasping onto your situations... but i mean, it's their job. unbiased opinions and outside help CAN sometimes work, if you are WILLING. when you aren't willing, it's true- it's a definite waste of time, and you'll get frustrated and think they are bullshitting and have the "oh what do you know" attitude. but, (and im not suggesting it for you if you really think it sucks) i just think it's nice to have those close to you (friendwise) and those with an unbiased view who've studied things.... i
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See, that's another problem. I'm not willing to let psychologists help me. It's a different situation with my friends. I'm AFRAID to let them help me, thinking I'll sound completely self-absorbed when talking about my problems. I just need to open up. I've only been to two different therapists. Maybe they just weren't right for me, I don't know. I'm just not comfortable talking about my life. I know they've studied all about people, or even more specifically, teenage females and they know what they're talking about as they find out what bothers them the most. I'm not saying my life is more difficult than a 14 year old girl who was drugged, raped, and is now pregnant. I don't mean that at all, but I do think I have a few extra problems I don't need right now. And I've come to the realization that I probably have a few psychological disorders. I'm an acute hypochondriac for one. And I think I may be bipolar. I have severe anger management issues. I don't know.. It's all the result from all this bullshit
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and sometimes it's even better not just to talk, but to be in each others presence and feed off any positive energy either can submit.
I don't know Sarah, it sounds like you have some problems that need dealing with, and I think you kind of recognize that- and you want to reach out and take somebody's hand to help you... but you're unsure, and you're unsure how to have help, you feel like you are invalid/undeserving for help-- but you really do deserve it just as much as anyone else ( ... )
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i think you can figure out who's there for you in positive ways and who's there just for the time being, though..
just to say... you may see these professionals as not knowing you (this is the case with MANY teens/young adults) or fully grasping onto your situations... but i mean, it's their job. unbiased opinions and outside help CAN sometimes work, if you are WILLING. when you aren't willing, it's true- it's a definite waste of time, and you'll get frustrated and think they are bullshitting and have the "oh what do you know" attitude. but, (and im not suggesting it for you if you really think it sucks) i just think it's nice to have those close to you (friendwise) and those with an unbiased view who've studied things.... i ( ... )
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