for some reason guilt has been the main factor in my recent decisions for the past few months. why is choosing between independence and a sense of loyalty so hard? i've been old enough to make my own decisions for a long while now, you'd think with 20 years experience under my belt i'd be getting the hang of setting my priorities straight.  has ( Read more... )

i hardly practice what i preach. well, at least in some crucial areas of my life.  i don't follow through and there's no sense behind it. hmp.

i really don't understand why i was a member of "hot_fashion" for 3 years. i fucking hate that community...and i dislike the people in it even more. i'm so over people that are obsessed with appearance and designer labels. what are they living for? i saw a post today that was "omg my night-to-day outfitzz"  and i thought, damn. i never change from ( Read more... )

I think I'm just looking for something. I'm not sure what it is, but it feels like a compulsion to get out there and do something I normally wouldn't.  This music isn't helping and neither is the silence filling my house ( Read more... )

about every night i ask myself "lj?" then i say no and do other things. but maybe this time i'll take some time out of my night. i'm practically gone every night anyway, maybe it's time i went to bed early enough for class tomorrow. hell yeah it's only midnight.

i think i really needed this past weekend.  a weekend to do whatever the fuck i wanted. ( Read more... )

i'm lame, but i feel empty without putting myself out on the internet when i have somethign to say.  just letting you know that an actual post will be here tonight or tomorrow, depending on when i have more free time.  and yes, the topic will be how awesome this weekend was and what great friends i have.

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umm. update coming soon.
you can't spell "lazy" without t-a-r-a.

i forgot to say this. someone from shrine has to remember her...this girl guadalupe. i think she was a couple years younger than me? anyway, i saw her last wednesday at sevin and she won this dance-off type thing. i guess you could just call it the "let's see which trashy girl simulates crazy fast sex on some guido's lap the best" contest. anyway, ( Read more... )

my headache is large and in charge. it's a tension headache...thanks, black friday. oh and my bosses are just so....nice! haha right.  money is money, and i just registered for next semester, woooo ( Read more... )