and i keep thinking "this feeling will subside." bullshit. i still continue to wake up in tears, and i still fall asleep crying everynight. i can't even listen to fucking music, everything i've liked for the past 4 years just reminds me of him. i'm sure my friends are sick of hearing "this song reminds me of josh" or "one time josh and i". i'm even ( Read more... )

this time 4 years ago I was playfully making out with this blue eyed boy who stole my heart the first time he looked into my eyes and said that I was beautiful. I was 16 and totally crazy for this boy who was nothing like me. I mean, he loved Video Games and Dungeons and Dragons and Star Wars. He loved Comic Books and was smarter than anyone I had ( Read more... )

happy cinco de mayo. its now time to go to vernor and get blowed in honor of my heritage. someone is definitely going to get shot today/tonight ( Read more... )

Yo yo yo, this is J to the P. I'm taking over this journal. You can all be my friends. Except Jamie Martinek. What kind of name is that anyway? The Polish version of Martinez? You should have played outfield for the San Diego Padres ( Read more... )

i hardly ever sleep but that's 'cause i love so many things.
and guess what? i'll probably like you, and your smile.

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