goodbye __bitchcakes

this journal is nothing but a vague collection of my troubles. not that you should really expect to know who i am based on what i write in my livejournal reguardless. i just added the people i actually talk to in the new one. feel free to add me if you're in that category. it's been fun.

skye____bleu

good golly miss molly

things have changed and i'm moving with the flow. an odd but quite insiteful analogy my cheesy aunt sent to me in a forward ( Read more... )

i went to reno two years ago with my mom and her boyfriend. it was incredibly dull for me because i was alone with a pocket of useless cash he had given me, while they were downstairs gambling. well, he was gambling, and my mom was standing to the side talking to people. eventually, he passed out from the alcohol. a man helped us get him to the car ( Read more... )

today is my half birthday.

you know in cartoons when they have the greedy bad guy and like he sees something, and there are giant dollar signs in his eyes? in europe, would he have giant euro signs in his eyes?

yesterday i had coffee with the boy who told me he hated me more than anything and wanted me to die. yesterday i had coffee with the boy who did everything he possibly could to make others see me the way he did, for reasons i will never come to understand. the most peculiar part of it was that it was normal. we did our little handshake and he ate ( Read more... )

i have no motivation. i want to spend all the live long day with everything outside of this crucial routine. i'm growing more pessimistic and bitter every day. i'm digging deeper and deeper. something so simple and minuscule and suddenly, i've hit rock bottom. trapped in my own self-pity. i'm always crying over my fucking spilt milk.

i went snowboarding yesterday with becky. it took me about half an hour to learn how to stand up, and i fell at least 40 times. best. day. ever.