thiis iisn't happeniing, ii`m sure of iit.

[__chemicallove]

sorry no pictures. long entry, i suggest you didn't read it, this is just kind of so i can vent out some things to myself.

So let's start from the begining.. my dad is in the hospital, again. and this time he really isn't getting any better. i'm so sick of this, why my dad? he did nothing selfish he always put everyone else before himself and

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your not whining baby. i'll be your shoulder to cry on. anytime. you know i'll be there for you. and i know i made mistakes in the past that made us grow apart, but i was fucking naive! i missed you so much, i don't want to see you hurt. i hate seeing my friends hurt. its not right, your supposed to be happy and i'm the one thats supposed to be in the corner being emo. i want you to be truly happy babe. i really do because you deserve it. and honey, your not ugly!! god damnit your not ugly!!! don't ever fucking say that again! and if i ever see any more new cuts on your wrists i will personally go to your house and take ever sharp object out! even the fucking kitchen knives because you dont need to do it. its not you. what happened to when you got all freaked out when the power went out and we held onto eachother for dear life because your brother scared us? what happened to the old days?

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I love you
and I'll be here for you if you need to talk
♥

[___lovesuicide]

shay, call me right now. 360-9239
we need to talk. i know we arent that close,
but seriously call me right now.

i love you.<3

Shay

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Everyone cares and loves you dearly, even if you don't feel the same way. You have had such an impact in my life in the past 6 months, It's truly amazing. Even the distance I am from you, i care about you so much and wish you were okay. I know all of what you said up there, unfortunately. You said yesterday we don't talk about this stuff, but yeah i nkew all that and i don't even know what to say. Your dad will be fine trust me on that babe. Hes going to iran and its for the best. I know how hard it will be but its for the best. Your mom, I don't know what to say. Shes gonna be the one you're gonna have to learn to love. And talk to, and whatnot. She obviously gets you upset a lot, but you better work that out you adorable thing you. in the middle of my essay let me just say i love you i love u i love u. I hate you're insecurity with yourself. you are the most beautiful girl. Don't wanna be anyone else but yourself. I know I wouln't want you any other way. I'm sorry your mom worries so much about material shit. it really sucks. i

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p.s. sorry it was so long.

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